Thursday, May 19, 2011
Giving myself grief
I felt real shitty yesterday. My daughter's 1st grade graduation was yesterday and I could not make it. I had to work. I wish someone, if not me, was there to support her. When I picked her up from school, the first thing she said was "Mommie, I'm mad at you." Then she proceeded to list all of her classmates parents, who were in attendance. I felt like crap. It was just circumstances that I can't control. I am a single mother. Her dad is not here. So I apologized a million and one times to her, and tried to explain why mommie could not make it in hopes that she would have some sort of understanding. Idk, I just needed to get this out, so that I could stop replaying that conversation in my head. I know if I could have made it, I would. Note to self, I'm catching a cold for the next big event in her school. I cant deal with that feeling again. Now back to thinking light.