Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Earthday--- today's mathematics: wisdom cypher

Like everyday,

I'm grateful for life.  I'm grateful to see 35 in good mental, physical, and emotional health.  I'm trusting that the universe will bless me with more life experiences so that I can continue to gain wisdom that I can pass on to my baby girl.  As this fortune cookie stares back at me reads "Live each day as though it were your last,"  I intend to take heed and still balance it with being in this world and not of it.  That is my bdy gift and promise to myself...
Happy birthday to me.

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

I want ya mind fuck the money (c) Jay Electronica

On my Jay Electronica this am..... Enjoi

Dealing-Jay Electronica

At nighttime all I do is pray and cry homie
Cause everytime I call home somebody dying on me
And every time I look around somebody lying on me
Mr cheney mr ridge steady spyin on me
I got one foot in the grave one foot in the gutter
One foot on the camera lens one foot on the shutter
I'm trying to stop time so I can breathe, man I'm grindin
Play record low pause fast forward rewindin
The truth is the light, but absolutely blindin
And niggas feel the pain on they brain when you remind them
About them project wars that we confined in
About them six by eight cells we linin
Bricks on consignment
A nigga lost his iron and club behind the diamond
The cops hit him with a club
He swung back they hit him with a slug
Then the judge hit him with a dub
His baby mama threw up
The saga continues...

I was born to clash with the fake
Harassin with jake
Lay real low in the grass with the snakes
Torment em with the fire when they raise they head
And I'm sorta just like elijah cause I raise they dead
After the stink and rot for days in the grave that I rose from
Deport the dead part of the game then the flows come
Flood the industry with three quarters of life
I'm takin this world of sa-tan to war with a mic
Please god back me as I swing the sword of the christ
Wavy hair fiery eyes,
Not entirely wise
Provoking these devils go to war with they squad
After war show em to the after party with god
I stroll the blocks with a dope man bop
I'm high caliber
My team shine supreme we gleam on you amateurs
I stay big sportin fedoras
Charcoal braid tweed sport coat jeans and diadoras

Ya'll niggas ain't really really ready for muhammad because I'm hungry
Grimey and grungy
I want ya mind fuck the money
Don't get me wrong, I want cream and all that
But if that's your only objective in rap you all wack
I make the untrue niggas head sweat like skull caps
Hall back launchin a bolo makin they skull crack
Singin them dull raps
Like that was hot shit
Shit, I was sayin that back in the 80s
When niggas was rockin emblems off the back of mercedes
On rope chains
Back when niggas thought of cookin rocks outta cocaine
I was hot then, a little poor nigga spittin the vicious
Flavor delicious poetic swift shit
I regulate in the ring like P. whitaker
One rhyme get rid a ya
I won't even consider ya
For battle
You schools on speed I'm full throttle
Used to be in clubs tossing chairs and cracked bottles
Ruckus and ra ra, made my rhymes my dekea
Livin leyenda, numer un contenda
Never let a day slip by without agenda
That's just a little due from farrakhan to remember
So ke capasa,
Representanto for el rasa
Niggas wanna step but they legs too short to salsa
You got courage I'll blast it out ya
Seriously doubt chya
Spit til ya blueprint is ripped, then re-route chya

(lyrics compliment of urbanlyrics.com)

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

and to add to that .....

Huemans often use the terms emotion and feeling interchangeably. There is, however, a distinct difference between the two.

Consider, when we visualize someone who is emotional, we often picture someone who is in a state of distress. This distress can manifest itself as anger, jealousy, or abuse for example. However, when we speak of a person who feels, the thought is usually of someone who is caring and thoughtful. One who feels is often moved by how others are affected by the trials and tribulations of life and they want to assist in the betterment of those lives. It is often said about such a person that they feel very deeply.

When someone is in a state of emotionalism, it usually results in the person being unbalanced or better stated, not at peace. Emotionalism is a reaction rather than a response to life, the difference being that when we react, we give our life force over to that thing or person to which we are reacting and in many cases it boomerangs back on us, quite often in ways that leave in their wake ripples of pain that are seemingly unending. For instance, humanity is very emotional about religion. Each religious sect believes that it has found the key to the kingdom. This belief runs so deep that it is almost impossible to have an open discussion without members of one sect or another taking personal offense to what is being said about their god. The irony is that many religious people often claim to be peaceful, tolerant and understanding; yet, you have merely to study history and/or watch modern news reports to know that our emotionalism as it relates to religion has and continues to wreak havoc in the lives of "believers" and "nonbelievers" alike. The fallout from emotionalism touches not only the object of the emotion but the source of it as well.

To respond to life is to take action or not to take action, with a keen understanding of the relationship between cause and effect and a complete willingness to take full responsibility. Thus, response is conscious whereas reaction is unconscious. Response may not be consistent but it is always authentic. Response is intelligence in action. As such, one may respond quickly but one never responds in haste, one may mull things over but one is always decisive, and one may be uncertain but one always moves with clarity of thought.

The person who responds feels his way through life. The person who reacts thinks his way through life. It is not that thinking is bad. The problem arises because our thoughts are not our own. We have assimilated the thoughts of our environment (parents, society, institutions, etc.) We have been schooled to think in a certain way and this schooling runs deep in us, so deep that when something triggers a certain program of this schooling, we react. A feeling person will not react, at least not as much as an emotional person. Should the feeler react, you can be almost certain that he/she has slipped into emotionalism.

To feel is to know life. It is to flow with the tide instead of against it. The person who feels also understands and their understanding (because of feeling) will have a depth to it the emotionalism cannot provide. Feeling allows you to see past the illusion of another's words or deeds. It will give you the ability to see beyond the periphery. When your feelings are finely tuned you will begin to gradually release emotionality, you will move into a peaceful space, and you will begin to interact with others from this space; And, because this space is a healing space you will become a magnate to which others who are in need of healing will be attracted. Others will say of you that you are calm, laid back, and they will want to know your secret.

You may be surprised to learn that emotionalism is a result of repressed feelings. We have been cut off from our true nature. We have become beings of logic alone. We reside mostly in our heads. Almost all of our life interactions are filtered through rationalization. We rarely give voice to our "gut" feeling. Still, we can only silence our feelings; we cannot kill them. They will continually seek to be expressed and if they cannot be expressed via the natural course then they will choose the only path open to them (emotion). Because, however, emotion is not the true course, all that flows from it will be distorted.

It will take practice to move away from one's emotions. In order to decrease your reactions you must turn inward. Watch yourself. Begin to take note of when you are becoming emotional and pay attention to what is causing your emotion to surface. Do not focus on what someone else is saying or doing. The seed of emotionalism lies within you. Thus, that is were your attention needs to be. Think of it in this way: Let's say someone goes to a home looking for you, if you do not reside at that address, then they will not find you there. Now think of your consciousness as this home and anger as the resident. If anger does not reside within you, no amount of knocking at the door will bring it forth. No one can cause you to become angry; they can only add water to the seed that is already there. Practice watching your reactions and then choose to respond. The more you choose response the weaker emotionalism becomes. Over time, emotionalism will fall by the wayside. Subsequently, however, you will appear "unemotional" (unfeeling) to others.

The person who is centered, in feeling, often appears aloof and unconcerned (not worried) about what is happening in the external world. This person may even be accused of being unsympathetic to the plight of individual "tragedies." While it is true that the feeler is generally not a worrier nor a person of sympathy, they are nevertheless very empathetic. Empathy implies a deep connection that surpasses the physical. Because most of us are centered in the physical, the feeler, the person of empathy will in-fact be detached.

Detachment as it is misunderstood by the linear thinker would seem to be a bad thing. The connotation is that a detached person does not feel and is overly self-centered, caring only for themselves. Nothing could be further from the truth. Detachment in its pure form is an outgrowth of acceptance, of recognition of the multidimensional makeup of life, of recognition and embracing life's many paradoxes. It is merely another way of saying, be in the world but not of the world. Those who accept that the physical world is all there is, will not understand you. You will have moved beyond the singularity of physical existence. People tend only to judge from their level of understanding. If attachment is the norm for most people, then of course they will not comprehend detachment.

Once you have accepted life's paradoxes, you simply relax; you embrace what is and you move ahead with little fan fare (emotionalism). This does not mean that you will not feel. For example, you will, like most people, feel the loss of a loved one. But you will have a knowing that things are occurring exactly as they should. This knowing allows you to relax into the situation, to feel it deeply, to accept it. Emotionalism is denial of some personal or external truth [i.e., Your mate wants to leave you but you refuse to let them go; your child rejects your way of life (a life built on falsehoods and half truths) after you have spent time and money raising them the "right" way so you disown them]; or you are an alcoholic who does not want to face the truth so you batter and beat your loved ones because their non alcoholism is a constant reminder of your weakness. Denial expands emotionalism while acceptance short-circuits it.

To express one's self via emotionalism is to react from a state of unconsciousness. To feel life is to feel the presence of God. All was quiet before God started creating. This tells us that God's organic state is that of peace, of stillness. In order to increase God's presence in our lives we must become still within. Feeling is flowing; thus, it is stillness. Emotion is fighting; thus, it cannot be peace.



Love gives space for things to be....

Monday, December 12, 2011


Thought this was a cool little website about left-handed folks like myself.  I just took a snippet from http://www.lefthandersday.com/.  Enjoi!

Being Left-Handed

Brain organisation

No-one has come up with a definitive reason for WHY some people are left-handed, but about 13% of the population around the world are, and it is thought to be genetic - it definitely runs in families. Researchers have recently located a gene they believe "makes it possible to have a left-handed child " so if you have that gene, one or more of your children may be left-handed, whereas without it, you will only have right-handers - sorry! The good news is, that if you are left-handed yourself, you have that gene and will pass it on through the generations!
The way the brain works is incredibly complex, but this simplified explanation will give you some understanding of where our left-hand dominance comes from. The brain is "cross-wired" so that the left hemisphere controls the right handed side of the body and vice-versa and hand dominance is connected with brain dominance on the opposite side - which is why we say that only left-handers are in their right minds!
Brain organisation left hemisphere and right hemisphere
The left hemisphere (RIGHT HAND CONTROL) controls Speech, Language, Writing, Logic, Mathematics, Science, this is the LINEAR THINKING MODE.
The right hemisphere (LEFT HAND CONTROL) controls Music, Art, Creativity, Perception, Emotions, Genius, this is the HOLISTIC THINKING MODE

Effects of right brain dominance

This brain dominance makes left-handers more likely than right handers to be creative and visual thinkers. This is supported by higher percentages of left-handers than normal in certain jobs and professions - music and the arts, media in general. (See the results of our Lifestyle Survey of Left-Handers for our detailed findings) Left-handers are also generally better at 3-dimensional perception and thinking, leading, for example, to more left-handed architects than normal. Left-handers are also usually pretty good at most ball sports and things involving hand-to-eye co-ordination.
Image descriptionThe view that left-handers are clumsy and awkward is not down to their natural abilities, but being forced to use right-handed tools and machinery which is completely back-to-front for them.
To find out more, and for some hints and tips for getting the most out of a right-handed world, visit the FAQ section at Anything Left-Handed.
If you are interested in the latest research and findings on left-handedness, you can buy the excellent book Right-Hand, Left Hand by Chris McManus in the online shop.

Thursday, December 8, 2011


One of the most liberating things one can do for self
Is to realize, acknowledge, and accept
That one can not control another's actions or lack thereof
Liberation begins at this point
Live life for YOU
and not by trying to control others

Wednesday, December 7, 2011


The complexities of thought
Seek simplicity through evasion
     Ignore, the known
     Run from the deeper
     Vibrating low
     On below level planes

It is safe there
It smells like
Taste like
Before the race
Has begun
Clothes itself
In self-victimization

     The complexities of thought
     Seek simplicity through evasion

But when it is ready for lift off
The sun shines light on a path
For wisdom(e) and (o)verstanding

     To receive and reflect
     And rise thru chakras
     Seeking higher ground
     Not of this place
     But in this space

And it all becomes

Friday, December 2, 2011


No part of me, questions that I will be there
Thru thick and thin.....

I know this now.

Thursday, December 1, 2011


We are watering our garden and watching it grow.  The nutrients we are giving it are communication, understanding, trust, patience, and non-judgement.

The sun is smiling on our garden.....